I want to share my testimony with everyone so that you can see god work though my experience. In order to see how god worked through me, you must know a little bit about me. I will start with my childhood and go from there. I will use the term “girl” to keep the name of my ex girlfriend classified.
Growing up I always went to church with my grandparents or my friend’s family. As I got older I got to where I was unable to go. I worked at a restaurant that worked on Sunday mornings. And every other job I have ever had I worked on Sundays so I was unable to go to. I went to what they call “Focus” at the church on campus with my girlfriend every once in a while. She always begged me to go and even bribed me with food, so I would go with her.
I began to date this girl in 2006. After being together ten months we decided to go to the same college that was 3 hours away from our hometown. I dated the girl for right at two years nine months. I was loyal to her the entire time. I may not have given her everything she wanted, but I gave her everything she needed. We lived together in an apartment the last 13 months of that time. She was more than just my love, she was my best friend. I had every intention of proposing to her very soon (within the next year). She was my number one in my life.
Everything sounds great and wonderful in my life. I have someone that could possibly be my wife, I have a place to live, and I have everything in my life planned out for the next 3 years. Everything wasn’t perfect. She was always reluctant to tell me stuff that would embarrass her or that would hurt me. This led to me not trusting her and second-guessing her. Yes, there is more to the story, but it doesn’t have to do with my testimony so I will leave it out. She eventually started seeing someone while I was out of town. I found out about it once I got back. I was not happy about the situation. I prayed to god about the every night for the next four days until we both moved out of our apartment and back to our hometown. I prayed not only for me, but also for the girl to make the right decision. With the right decision not to be with me, but not to be with the guy she was seeing.
I talked with several friends and family about the situation.
To help you better understand me, I decided to show you the message I sent back to a “girl” friend that I talked to. She talked to me on facebook right after me and the girl broke up.
“I just wanted to thank you. You have made the biggest impact/change of my life.
First off, I have always been one to turn to God when I have a problem. It just seemed like he hasn’t been answering my prayers. I have never asked him into my heart.
On May 31, 2009 I was driving home from having fun with my family at the river.I began to feel upset because I was alone and could not keep my mind off her. I knew I couldn’t call her anymore because she would not help me and she would just call me a baby when I cried. I felt like I had nothing left in life. I have no girlfriend, I have no friends that I could go out and have fun with in my hometown. I felt like nothing mattered anymore. I didn’t know how I was going to make it through the night or even make it home. I was trying not to cry so I would be able to drive. I was at an all time low.
I began to remember the stuff you told me on facebook the other day and how I should turn to God. And that night with tears of pain in my eyes and nothing left in my life I turned to God. I ask God into my heart and ask him to guide me in the direction he intended. Immediately the pain in my heart relaxed and I felt like God had given me the strength to keep going on. The greatness of the moment was so strong I almost had to pull over because it took my breath away. Even though everything was so bad, I drove home with a smile on my face and the tears of pain turned into tears of joy.
Thank you. You have made the greatest changed in my life. God Bless You!”
Just because I am now a follower of Christ now doesn’t make everything better. I still face the same problems as before, but I have the strength needed to keep going and overcome my problems. I kept up with the girl using text, myspace, and facebook for the next 2 weeks, and then dropped everything and didn’t contact her anymore.
To help you better understand me, I decided to show you the message I sent back to a “girl” friend that I talked to. She talked to me on facebook right after me and the girl broke up.
“I just wanted to thank you. You have made the biggest impact/change of my life.
First off, I have always been one to turn to God when I have a problem. It just seemed like he hasn’t been answering my prayers. I have never asked him into my heart.
On May 31, 2009 I was driving home from having fun with my family at the river.I began to feel upset because I was alone and could not keep my mind off her. I knew I couldn’t call her anymore because she would not help me and she would just call me a baby when I cried. I felt like I had nothing left in life. I have no girlfriend, I have no friends that I could go out and have fun with in my hometown. I felt like nothing mattered anymore. I didn’t know how I was going to make it through the night or even make it home. I was trying not to cry so I would be able to drive. I was at an all time low.
I began to remember the stuff you told me on facebook the other day and how I should turn to God. And that night with tears of pain in my eyes and nothing left in my life I turned to God. I ask God into my heart and ask him to guide me in the direction he intended. Immediately the pain in my heart relaxed and I felt like God had given me the strength to keep going on. The greatness of the moment was so strong I almost had to pull over because it took my breath away. Even though everything was so bad, I drove home with a smile on my face and the tears of pain turned into tears of joy.
Thank you. You have made the greatest changed in my life. God Bless You!”
Just because I am now a follower of Christ now doesn’t make everything better. I still face the same problems as before, but I have the strength needed to keep going and overcome my problems. I kept up with the girl using text, myspace, and facebook for the next 2 weeks, and then dropped everything and didn’t contact her anymore.
God has given me the strength to go from seeing, talking, loving, and living with this girl, to having nothing to do with her at all. I am really proud of that because it was the hardest thing I have ever had to do and it is a continuing battle not to contact her. God is great!
I faced depression during the summer very bad. I lost 40lbs within 3 months. I believe god helped a lot keeping me from alcohol and drugs, and allowed me hang out with some old friends for the last part of the summer.
I believe there is a reason for everything that happens. I believe God took the number one thing in my life, so that he could become my number one. While this may sound bad, I am actually happier now than I have ever been in my entire life. I feel like I have made a giant leap from where I was to where I am now. And by that I mean, God has helped me make new friends “mainly Christian ones and I try to learn more about God every chance I get. I now attend focus along with other church events every chance I get.
I believe there is a reason for everything that happens. I believe God took the number one thing in my life, so that he could become my number one. While this may sound bad, I am actually happier now than I have ever been in my entire life. I feel like I have made a giant leap from where I was to where I am now. And by that I mean, God has helped me make new friends “mainly Christian ones and I try to learn more about God every chance I get. I now attend focus along with other church events every chance I get.
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